Febuary 10th, 2013
Sunday
Today God really showered his grace on me.
I missed the Bus that goes to church by 30 minutes... (i was cooking for a friend because it was put on my heart) by the time i went outside there was no one.
Went inside, stopped by the ladies room and asked the Lord if by some way he could send a car, send someone to take me to church. I know that the world does not revolve around me .. but .. this time.. can something happen so i can go to church.
After i headed to my room, i was about to swipe in when i heard a voice say, go back outside. I thought.. there is no loss checking.. and . .when i went out.. my heart dropped.
All the way by the dumsters was a car.
But i didnt know who it was for. I stood out side a while and then afterwards...
the car began to back up... it swung around and came by me..
It was two of my Korean older brother's (oppa's) from church!
WHAA!!! GOD IS SOO MERCIFUL.
After entering a bit.. i could not help but cry. It really was a miracle. Funny thing.. they thought that they were there by accident. I am not sure what officially happened.. but .. i know that another sister that was going to play piano.. she overslept and they needed to get her.. so .. seriously... PRAISE THE LORD!!!!
I had been going through so much recently and so much heart ache and draining that i longed so badly i longed so badly to be around the body of believers. God knows. <3
At church they talked about the payment that Jesus paid for us on the cross.. and also .. how the cross represented judgement and love.
It kept reminding me of Toi and his death. How i had the chance to share.. i had begun to share.. but . i never properly did... i just ended up losing patience and arguing about silly things like wording.
I truely was a mess today.. i could not hold back tears.. but just cried.
The pastor's wife had been trying to contact me the day before... but she couldnt get ahold of me... When i went to see her i told her what had happened and she was amazed because the car that went to pick us up was an "accident".. but God provides.!
We had Curry for lunch...
That was Toi's favorite food. I could not eat..
but i kept remembering the verses about how weather we eat or drink we should thank the LORD and how food is just for the body not somthing bigger than that... then i knew that if i did not eat it.. it would become a stubling block... it would become a fear and a paralyzer..
So after i ate, though difficult and not pleasant. My stomach remained sour.
But God provides :)
Later I went to Yuya's. I wanted to make sure he was ok, and hang out with him.
So we hung out the rest of the day. He was doing a lot better praise the LORD. Or at least he seemed like it..
His friends came later to eat dinner and stay the night. So we cooked and i kaeried ( i went home) .
Febuary 11th, 2013
Monday:
Woke up .. did some cleaning :) and.. work again.
Today was a very calm and free day :) It was nice. it was rainy though.. but really nice :) .
Febuary 12th, 2013
Tuesday:
I did research online. I found alot of Toi's web sites... there were many that said the same things... :( .
Today i went downtown. I needed to get my phone checked because i can only recieve texts but not send them...
But i felt like i should take the Kamenoi bus because it is cheaper and the view is nicer :) .. So i did but I took a different bus due to a feeling that i should. And praise the Lord, everything worked out perfectly, and non stressful :) Plus.. now i can text! :D! Also.. got valentines day ingredients :)!
Febuary 13th, 2013
Wendsday:
TODAY IS COOKING DAY :)!! I get to clean my room, and begin cooking for my friends tomorrow. :) Since in Japan Feb 14th means that girls have to give guys valentines ... i want to make them for my guy friends :)!
Febuary 14th, 2013
Thursday:
VALENTINES DAy!!! Made valentines for friends and got to cook with Jan :) then ...
.. i have work.
Work was very difficult today. It was hima (not busy) then all of a sudden.. boom!!! soo manny customers! There were some confusions and work became stressful :/
Febuary 15th, 2013
Friday:
Today i worked again at night. It was a bit free then became extreemly busy again!!! It was so busy that the wait time increased and my brain was hurting from the stress of working in a different language other than my native toungs. One customer got so upset that he not only complained to the chef (our boss) but he also told other customers that had just come in that we had a rediculous wait time and other things. They soon after left the shop. Whaa!!! so stressful!! it really felt rediculous today. Praise the Lord i was working with Jan, and it made things feel alot less stressful. Very thankful. We closed late.. and .. i keep being reminded on how much i need to improve. I need to be faster.. and understand Japanese better. :( .
