Finals Time..
Final month in Japan
Final ... ________ fill in the bank : /
SO Culture shock keeps happening. It is like a constant daydream. Which is hard to snap out of.
I am trying to wrap my mind around going back to the US of A. But.. when I begin.. I just keep reminiscing of being home. But then.. the same happens for here. It is like my memories are replaying constantly. But also reminiscing about Japan too.. it is a non-stop cycle...
I feel so out of it.
So much so that I forgot I had another final today... but praise the LORD! my friend in another class happened to be in the same class and asked me about it... so that I made it to the final.. despite my horrid score :( . Whaa...
Another things...
it is so weird.. you think of someone then they appear... i don't get this... it happens all the time.. so stranngggeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Packing, mind, things, but not sure. Unsure of what is next. Trust. Trust. Trusting that as always, my steps will be led by the Living God who loves and cares.
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Blogging again?
So many changes...
So many realizations...
But how many will remain what i think of them now.. most likely my ideas now will change later right?
Constantly going through change.
One thing i don't understand... How I am compared here...
So different. In every culture I am told I am SO this or SO that. I don't get it..
is it wrong to accustom to the culture you are in.. i thought it was a good thing... you change back when you get into another too right? ... hmm
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From simple to complicated, to simple to complex again. Trying to prepare my mind for the SHOCK.
As I say hi and bye to people, i can not bring myself to closure. .. Just let it roll on. Roll on as if I will be back i think ... :/ Want to do so much, say so many things, but i am left with little time. But isn't that how life always is.. little time. We just think we have more time don't we? .. but in reality.. time could end tomorrow. That is why Jesus always asked us to follow him now right? leave all behind. That is why David sings about the fleetingness of beauty or the uncertainty of time. Even Solomon talks about it. With the holding on to one constant, one creator. GOD. Seriously, when ever I am trusting Him, it ends up alright, but when I begin to rely on other things.. the shocks begin to hurt, they are detrimental and the up and down cycle escalated. WHaaa...
Live with eyes wide open, arms wide open.
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