Febuary 4th -7th, 2013

Febuary 4th, 2013
Monday:
Talked to Mom, and Tiffany came to my room because she wanted to give me food that would go bad if she left it... so then afterwards she told me she would leave in a bit..
I got to see Tiffany off , as she went back to China for the break :/ .
Had a busy day studying and hanging out.
Went downtown to go see Yumi because she was sick with the NoroVirus.
We got back to ap house late... went to hang out with Enna, Dessy, Cherry, Tasha, Kurumi, and Yen. WE had a dinner cooking date.. but .. it ended up that i came late.. but i made pancakes later so it was ok :) <3 My girls!
Went to bed late because ended up cleaning and trying to read in my room.. but i didnt propperly go to bed..  I got woken up by Pat at 5 am ( i asked him to wake me so i could see Cherry off) .. but i ended up going back to sleep .. then ..

Febuary 5th, 2013
Tuesday:
I got woken up by Pat at 5 am ( i asked him to wake me so i could see Cherry off) .. but i ended up going back to sleep .. then .. Woke up at around 6 because Cherry came knocking on my door. :)
We took the suitcases up to beppuwan. . but the way i took ( the non stairs way) ended up being more difficult than just taking the stairs :( ( sorry cherry) .. i guess there is a cost for trying to get around what everyone else has to do.. it is inevitable that .. the work out will still occur when going to beppuwan..
Got to see the sun rise :) .. then ..
Studied today and cleaned my room. :)
Enna and I made a cake for TOI because it was his birthday!! I want to give it to him.. but i did not know where he lived... :( .
It took us alot of the day.. Akie helped later.. and we ate dinner together.. we were going to watch a movie.. but .. we decided to postpone it. ..
Read a little of Girls gone wise in a world gone wild. <3

Febuary 6th, 2013
Wendsday:
Woke up early
Went running with ENNA!! :)
Went to dye Patrick's hair brown??...
Went to buy ticket for Korea
Watched/studied japanese drama
Played basketball
Stopped by Pandu's Met Yohei ( another one from Botswana)
Cooked with ABU and NANA
Went and hung out with Akie... ( watched drama.. i fell asleep) ..
Went back.. fell asleep..

Febuary 7th, 2013
Thursday:
Woke up earlyish.. because... wake up call from Pat.
Then .. fell asleep.. and wake up again to the sound of knocking on my door.. a man??
It was the cleaning people.. they came to check the smoke alarm and see if it worked.. :O eehh.. scary way to wake up.
Had a meeting for EDU NET at 1pm... but i for some reason was leaving at 11:55 (thinking i was going to be late) ... but.. When i knocked on Rina's door to go... she reminded me it was only about to be 12pm... soo .. I went back to my room to skype with my family :) <3
Meeting at 1, and also went to pick up my ferry tickets for Korea :) . (Tim called me earlier to tell me that it was ready ) .
At the meeting... Toi did not come...
I brought the cake Enna and I had baked for him on his birthday.. but... we did not go to the meetting..
So...I asked Yuya if we could go to his house to visit ( i did not know where it was)..
We went downtown together and knocked so manny times on his door but no answer...
No answer at all....
:(!! ..
We left the cake at the door.
We wondered where he was but... we did not know.. so ... we decided to talk to him later... it was strange.
We went to Hirose ( grocery store) bought some things then.. on our way out...
Yuya got a phone call from a guy that asked us to go to Toi's place.
He was looking for Toi...
He had a key to Toi's apartment and took us inside..
The rest i can not say at the moment ... but.. :(... we ended up at the police station.. ( my 2nd time already) .. and .. still can not find him. Please be praying against any lies and condemnation. It is somthing that is so serious right now. :(( I feel like in every way i am failing at being a light... and trusting in Christ's grace and love. It is SUFFICIENT ENOUGH!! IT IS!... Stomach churned.. and not sure what to do. I want to control the situation by looking all over.. but .. at this moment.. i know it is not in our hands. It is not... but this seriously is somthing that is a hugeee battle. PLEASE BE PRAYING> PLEASE>.
On the way home we saw Mahbubah.. i asked her if she had seen him.. she had not seen or heard from him either. :(...

After getting back to APU.. feel numb.
Told Gary i would help him get mud off his shoes.. soo .. went to his room but he was in the kitchen.. I saw Luke... and he told me he found a woman's suit being thrown out.. so we went trash collecting.. and it fit :O! .Wow suit was provided too! After...went back to Gary's and talked for a sec.. helped clean shoes.. then left to go visit Pat. Said hi.. then left soon after.
At AP house.. Kitchen duty.. ( Hiromi and Enna were cleaning) .. then .. we had planned to make banana bread.. so .. baked .. talked hung out.. and i began to fall asleep.. but then .. it was done.
Now.. now... cleaning up room... putting things away.. and.. thinking thinking thinking. I am thinking of the song Hero...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aNlZz3RQxos
Worried about Yuya :/ .
I am SO SICK OF THIS!!!! Sick of the fact that I used to stand up and stand out to love others and some how i have lost sight of this... become busy.. too busy to act even though i might notice.
When the Spirit speaks quietly .. telling us to love.. telling us to act... why do we put it off?? !!!
Why do we become so selfish. "It is our problem" .. we are supposed to act... be the hands and feet. The other week i think I wrote about talking to Toi about love, (a bit about Christ) and things... but.. why have i become hesitant... why did i not take that chance.. i felt like he was reaching out.. but why was i so unnequipped to speak truth. The truth that i am supposed to have hidden in my heart. Why am i covering the lamp.. why am i hiding it under a jar?