SOoooooooOOOO...
We are now in Quarter 2 of our Spring semester at APU!! :) But.. that means... then ... I will leave soon. I love home but, I also really like it here in Japan Doooshiiioo ( what to do) . But I know that the time that I am here for is for a reason. Sometimes we want to stay in the places that we like or that we are used to but the thing is that, that is when we become stale. Just like water. Even though I am sure it might prefer to not have to deal with changing properties, becoming evaporated, precipitated, separated from its pool of water where it grew up ( if water had feelings and was a live that is... XP) . But... the thing it is good. Just like in Genesis God talks about how he
"created mankind in his own image,
in the image of God he created them;
male and female he created them.
God blessed them and said to them, “Be fruitful and increase in number; fill the earth and subdue it. Rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky and over every living creature that moves on the ground.” "
If the first people had jobs and tasks to do on earth and were told to fill the earth and increase in number, (even before sin was present) , why wouldn't we still have jobs to do too?
SO recently that has been what has been coming up, purpose. Why APU. But I guess I don't need to keep asking why, but know that there is. I know that there is. There are so mannyyyy things that God has been doing in my life. SO many things that he continues to use to grow my heart and spirit. <3
Quarter break was one of these things. Actually it is a long story ( especially for my talkativeness :P) . The decision whether to go to Prayer Camp or a Mission trip was one of the decisions I struggled with the most since coming to Japan.
I wanted to go on the mission trip, but I had already signed up for the day in prayer; I wanted to be with my friends, but I felt like I needed to go on the mission trip. SO many things. It is my last break here in Japan. Only one time. So it was so much pressure. I feel like so many times I have to sacrifice myself. My brain tells me one thing but the rest of me says another, it is hard to choose which to believe. With this trip my commitment and brain logically made me feel so torn between the two.
Anyways... So After so much praying praying praying!! I still was unsure. But ... the Friday of spring break, I was at Auntie's ( FFF pastor's wife) and we usually go there to hang out and eat dinner together before having youth group, but this time, I was still struggling. Funny thing is, before when I was thinking about this, I had asked God that if this is from him that he would put it on Auntie's heart to be understanding. Funny thing, auntie and uncle brought it up before even I did. Not only that, but they both told me to go. Despite this answer to prayer, I was still stubborn and was thinking and praying and getting really frustrated over the decision.
It wasn't until they began worshiping that I began to feel a peace. I felt a peace and I knew the decision. Just to make sure I later went outside and kept worshiping God, and no matter how hard I tried to change my decision in my mind, there was only one answer. Mission trip. <3!! wow how merciful and patient is God especially to someone as stubborn and thick minded as me!!! :P!!
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