So I have come to the conclusion/realization that there is not much time left for me in Japan. (Or at least till my term is up)
It is really sad.
But mentally I am trying to prepare, reflect and see if there is anything that needs to be done before the goodbyes sneak up on me.
I feel so blessed for the people in my life and for the things that have happened both good and bad.
I don't really know how to cope right now to be honest. I just gotta keep moving. I know the only consistent thing is my Jesus. And so many things that I have been learning about relationships and cultures, the different ways people think, ways we are brought up. My kids here <3. I don't know what to say. I feel cruel. I come for a time, just to leave. How can I explain. The relationships I built, just to say goodbye and hope we meet again. :'(.
It feels too cruel.
But, I know right now that God can use this into something that is greater, lasts longer, for a reason bigger than I can plan up myself. A reason that has nothing to do with me, but about how much he loves each and every person he created. Each and every person that I have had the pleasure of sharing time with. They are his, and He loves them so much more than me being in their life, or I could.
I came with only a suitcase and a backpack. Now I have so much more. Both material and mental. Even though my Japanese has suffered a lot due to my lack of practicing this second quarter, God has answered so many prayers. I feel like I understand people a bit more. (At first I could not at all!!) But We are always changing, in many ways shapes and forms, so to love someone is to get to know them and see through the cultural norms. see though the outward influences. See the driving force of the actions, to care about the person and take the time to understand. Patience is more than a virtue, with patience one begins to understand.<3
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